your heart swells and rains blood

How to capture an world tour 10 seconds at a time:

Today as I was warming up my frozen dinner at work I flipped over the empty box and took a look at the calories, fat, carbs, etc.  I was warming up a 10.5 oz Heathy Choice meal, the box read 340 Calories.  I thought to myself, ‘340 calories, that sounds pretty good’.  And then I thought to myself, ‘what the hell does that even mean?  I don’t know how many calories I’m supposed to be eating or not eating in a day.’  So I googled it, opened a website, entered my gender (male), entered my height (5′6″), entered my weight (130) and entered my age (27)… poof, between being “lightly active” and “moderately active” I need between 1990 and 2296 calories a day (respectively) to maintain my weight.  Hmmm, okay. 

So then I decided to roughly add up how many calories I had eaten for the day, sadly today I missed brunch and ended up eating a frozen dinner instead (340 calories), and then a soda (150 calories), and then another frozen dinner for dinner (270 calories), and another soda (150 calories)… that comes to… add the fourty, carry the one… 910 calories after two meals.  Well, I don’t really snack and I don’t really eat much after work besides seaweed, rice paper or maybe some grahm crackers or a piece of toast so lets just call it an even 1000 calories for the day.  But then again I ran 2.7 miles this morning so… according to walkjogrun.net that burns off roughly 260 calories so that brings me to roughly… 740 calories?!  Interesting.

According to the website I that calculated what my calorie intake should be it also said…
If your goal is to lose weight by burning off excess body fat, aim to eat 500 fewer calories per day than your daily caloric needs, and maintain or increase your exercise activity. Do not go below 1200 calories per day unless you are on a medically supervised weight loss program or after consultation with your doctor.

Weird.  I don’t think I exceed 1200 calories sometimes so that probably isn’t good.  Here are some other interesting calorie facts, a slice of brown bread has about 33 calories, a slice of white bread has about 40 calories, one egg has 74 calories, and beer (12 oz) has….

source: http://wiki.answers.com/Q/How_many_calories_are_in_beer

So you’re saying if I have a couple beers tonight it will even out my calorie count?  I like the way you think.

other sources:
http://walking.about.com/cs/calories/l/blcalcalc.htm
http://www.weightlossforall.com/calories-bread.htm
http://wiki.answers.com/Q/How_many_calories_are_in_an_eggs

You can find some more beer & calorie stats at: http://www.shapefit.com/beer.html

For the past past few weeks I feel like I’ve been drinking lake water.  Appearently I’m not the only one.
http://www.startribune.com/local/24310144.html?location_refer=Faith%20+%20Values

Here at this age appearently people feel they are ready to get married.  There have been six engagements and/or weddings I’ve been informed of this year (amongst my peers).  Crazy.  Who’s next?  I guess at this point not much would surprise me.  Why not up the ante people, let say a cool dozen.  Haven’t you guys ever heard of spacing things out?!  Come on people, are you really going to make me buy six wedding presents this year?!   And oh yeah, congratulations.

I’m not there.  Saturday I woke up to reality.  I initially met the day looking up at the ceiling lying on a thin rug carefully placed over a wooden floor however some consideration, some back pain and some breakfast I relocated and found myself in my own bed.  Later, looking up at the ceiling from my own bedroom past the blades of the ceiling fan that was dispersing the stale midday heat I decided that the massive two drinking extravaganza had gotten the best of me.  I spent the rest of the day in limbo.  The next morning, I awoke after ten plus hours of sleep, slightly refreshed.  But then again I thought, where am I, where is my life, where are we, where was I five years ago, where will I be in five years?  This morning, after breakfast on my way into the office I answered; In Minneapolis, In the cereal aisle on the self between the Corn Flakes and the Chex, “We’re floating in space”, In a vulnerable shell of a existence, Where I am now with the friends I like now and some funions, not waking up on a wooden floor after a weekend of binge drinking (hopefully).

Everywhere you look there is love.  Love, love, love as the Beatles say.  It’s in the air, it’s in the people you meet and its hard to dismiss it’s impact in everyday life.  It fills your heart until its so saturated it rains down and spreads love.  That same emotion is soaked up and dispearsed by others.  And where there isn’t love, all you have to do is turn over a new leaf and find love.  If you look closely you can find love in friends, family and perhaps most recognisably, in the faces of a significant other.  And sometimes when you think love is gone all you have to do is take a deep breath, look up and sense the world around you.  Its there, its always there.  Why am I staring at the ceiling again?